At age 22 I entered the social service field ready to change the world. When I started grad school at age 23, I was determined, passionate, and zealous about helping the poor, the needy, and anyone who was willing to be saved by me. Today, seven years later, I have learned that life can really suck, money makes the world go round, you cant force people to change, and nobody needs to be saved my me. But more importantly I have met a gang banger sentenced to 7yrs of prison whose true dream was to become a singer, children who have experienced horrendous sexual abuse go on with their daily lives looking forward to recess, swings, and sweets, and severely, mentally ill adults whose true intelligence and creativity has humbled me. 

So yes, I am still paying for my $80,000 private school education, while getting attacked, cursed, and threatened by those who dont want to be saved by me…

But, I have to remember that I cant save or change people’s lives…all I can do is support others in pursuing their right to fail….

And of course, a lice epidemic here and there keeps my life interesting. 

One night I looked at myself in the mirror and freaked out, because I realized that I havent been proactive in preventing wrinkles. I read or heard from somewhere, somebody or something that women should start wearing eye cream starting at age 25 in order to prevent and slow down the aging process. I thought to myself, “Im 4 years late!! How could I have let so much time go by??” So the next day I ran to the mall and purchased an expensive bottle of Shiseido anti-aging, anti-wrinkle, anti-getting old eye cream, and even bought a separate bottle for Josh. That night I applied a generous amount on both eyes hoping to make up for lost time. And of course, I didnt want Josh to miss out so he became the helpless victim of my war against anti-aging as I generously applied some on his patient, understanding, tolerant eyes. I am turning 30 this year, and yes I am a little freaked out! But I am also beginning a journey of self-discovery (again), and exploring what it means to age, and why there are so many of us out there battling against it…